I have been a member and part of the SG family for a while now and I am pleased and grateful that I found this loving space in cyber land.
How astrology has fit in with my development!
As I type this the Sun is halfway through his journey through Leo who he rules, Mercury is at One degree Leo retroing, So I am working on, along with my fellow rams (suns or rising!) the inner child, or as I say as Leo is regal the inner Prince and Princess. While my/our Egos are being upgraded and getting the Uranus treatment and Pluto transforming our careers and Saturn giving our partnerships, the Saturn treatment and we all know he’s tough!
I will do my best to blend this all together and share how it has been for me.
So I will start with the Sun and Mercury. I have been given the chance to nurture my Inner Prince again, now he has had issues in he past and still does to some extent no wonder really as I grew up in Children’s Homes from the age of five and the time I was at home before aged five, I had a Mother (Aquarius with Leo rising) who was OCD and Bi Polar and a father (Virgo, I suspect Capricorn rising) who never really wanted a child and got trapped into a marriage when my mum got pregnant (they weren’t married at the time) I have clear memories of them arguing when I was a baby and me crying and them not coming. When my father left and they divorced when I was two. My mum couldn’t cope and I was over conditioned as a little Prince (OCD mum lol)
Anyway I grew up in care and moved homes five times. I was bullied in the last home mericlessly because I wasn’t into fighting and usual boy stuff and because I wouldn’t fight physically! On reflection after I came out as gay that they had probably picked up I was different like that and tried to bully it out of me! Lol well that worked well as I came put anyways! They also didn’t like that I studied well at school and did well, which was amazing considering I had missed so much of it before.
I was bullied at school because I came from my home!
Anyway I did have contact with them while I was in care they blamed each other for went on, visit and contact was chaotic at best!
Anyway thats some context as to where my Inner Child and Little Prince came from, which is useful to know when working on this transit. So I have found the Sun has shone his light on the areas needing light, love and warmth and Mercury is going over all the old messages and programming I received in that period.
Now I was bullied because of who I was, for my sensitivity, However I have remained Authentic to whom I am it has been a challenge sometimes as the Little Prince wants to be accepted yet will not conform to do so lol which has been tricky to balance sometimes. Luckily the being gay hasnt been an issue despite the attempt to beat it out of me while I was a child. So right wingers and crazy Christians you can’t make gays straight lol! Mercury has been helping look at where those messages still hurt me and where the Sun needs to shine his light to soothe the Prince to become the Wise, Loving King!
Now onto the Ego, the work of the Sun and Mercury fits here as the Ego and Inner Child are linked and sometimes the Inner Child/Little Prince influences how the Ego or my Ego has acted out! I am aware of my need for attention no shit Sherlock lol what with North Node, Chiron, Moon, Venus, Sun, Saturn all in Aries and my 11th house! The Childhood stuff and Uranus breaking it all down as he is still in the first third of Aries and has gone over my north Node, Chiron and my moon. So my emotions, healing and karma in someways a tricky transit, while at the same time squaring Pluto in Cappy and how my ego is linked to m y career and the relationship that has with each other. As in my ego is tied into what I do and with all that Aries and 11th house stuff is societial and how society and what I do in it is part of who iAm.
Anyway lately there has been breakdown and breakthrough doing this blog I feel is part of the break through as is paying for six mentoring sessions with Diane Hall to increase my spidey senses and get me on track to do the work I am here to do. Moving to Manchester to improve my social life and career options. Be flexible about what my options and possibilities are. Despite my frustrations and sometimes my Little Prince not acting as I would prefer, I feel, sense, know and believe I am here for a reason and have a message or messages to share (Gemini rising!) Especially how I can communicate with my voice being compromised by the surgery I had.
I will be brief about MErriage, Even though on a sexual, social and relationship level Saturn’s transit through Libra my fifth house and marriage sign has been frustrating and almost non existent and sometimes fodder for my mind to kick in and say well look at your childhood you are unloveable etc… On the whole I have noticed my tastes in Men have actually become broader and as such the opportunities for a relationship. my values and what I am after on a human, spiritual level have remained constant as I was always quite clear that the bloke has to be my Prince and treat me like a King! So mutual love and respect!
All this with my health stuff which I am now pretty sure is down to solar flares as each time I have an episode a day ot two later I read that Solar Flare activity has been high
Anyway thanks for your time in reading this, MY intention was to share what has happened and how I have experienced this transits.
My learning has been pretty intense and I know I haven’t always conducted myself as resourcefully as I could however I have always been Authentic and in context have done amazingly well not only to get through such a challenging childhood and I appreciate every childhood has its challenges! To have gone through such a massive operation recover so quickly! To have stuck with making the changes and doing the work. To wanting to share my experiences help others as I do have such a big desire and intention to make the world a better place. To having a good sense of whom i Am and to accepting myself more and more and as much as I can! I am still work in Progress, however we ALL are or we’d not be here on earth at this time we weren’t still work in Progress. All part of my Journey, of all of you and your Journeys is part of healing the Planet as a whole, One life time is many life times of the Planet! Earth is growing up into Aldulthood and by me working on my Little Prince and you working on your little Princes and Princesses we are working on the earths inner child as well.
I love you all for all your contributions to my learning. ♥♥♥